I am honored that you are here, that I may share some of myself with you. It is my hope that you will find something that you can take with you that may help you along your path. In Lake'ch (I am another yourself)My Inner Voice
Here I share with you songs, poems, meditations
from my Inner Voice, "Ilumani". Love is the music of my heart.
This has been one of the keynotes of our church and one that up until just recently that has eluded my understanding. I finally realized that I had not asked God for guidance on an important question. The answer to this question was the glue that bonded all other parts together for me and is an important part of this particular question. So I will relate my experience. "Christ in Us" - My Birthright
I remember as a young adult finding the term "The Endowment" resonated deep within me and I desired to learn more about this as was expressed in Kirtland Temple experience. At that time I read what I could find on the subject, but did not find what I was looking for in terms of understanding. One particular summer I went to Nauvoo to reunion and spent time at Kirtland searching for understanding. I went back home empty handed, not discovering this meaning in a manner that I could understand. I lost interest in pursuing it further. But this question has never left my consciousness. Then last year in October 2000 when I went to see my sister, this came to forefront when she gave me some Temple School material on the Temple. In between the covers of one of the course books was a 75-page testimony of two men's encounter with an "Angel" in 1980 who came to them in response to their questions about the Endowment and the Temple. This made a powerful impact on me as it brought to my consciousness these things that so long ago I was seeking to understand.
The question that I asked the Holy Spirit for an answer to was this: "Where do the understandings and experiences I have had outside of my faith (Church) connect with the doctrines of my church?"
The answer came in two parts. The Holy Spirit gave the first part to me within 24 hours of asking the question. The answer was: "The Celestial Kingdom". The rest of the understanding came to me 2 days later. In the early morning hours I was awakened. I lay there in a lucid state and this answer was spoken to me.
Following this I received a message from the Holy Spirit as follows:
"You can stand firmly and speak boldly for you have been given the understanding of the Celestial Law (Way) and access to the keys to unlock its Mysteries. You will be connected with those who like you have come to this place within My Church. Be gentle with My people for they are not all ready to receive these things. I will be with you at every opportunity to share your experiences. Do not let fear keep your tongue tied concerning this."he understanding in more detail has come forward since that experience in such a powerful way that my whole being is being changed hour by hour and day by day as this new consciousness resonates deeply within me.
In August of 2000 I experienced a "Christing". After I went to bed and before I fell asleep a vision opened up in front of me. I saw a tube of light come down from heaven. Then I felt myself rising up this tube of light. Along the way Angels or Light beings joined me as I rose up the tube. I came out at the top onto a scene that looked like some kind of a ceremony, parade. There were many Angels and Light beings. Everyone had come to witness and celebrate this big event. Everything was white or white with gold. Coming down the roadway was an egg-shaped carriage completely encrusted with pearls and diamonds. I saw myself riding in the carriage all dressed in white. I watched myself pass by in front of me. Then I saw a brilliant radiant white Light-Being with gold around the edges standing in front of me. Then I felt indescribable serenity and happiness as I was united with this Glorious Presence. Then I felt myself floating downward entering tree tops and then to the ground. This was an initiation, a spiritual wedding. The groom was the Christ. I feel that this initiation was a union between my physical-self and my Christed-self. He has entered into the Temple of my Sacred Heart. Christ has literally come to his temple within me. My body has become the Temple of the Most High Living God.
I have finally come to understand and KNOW (gnosis) that I have connected with the Celestial Kingdom or the Celestial level of conscious through recognizing my I AM Presence. This is what He has shown me is meant by "the Second Coming of Christ"� That is becoming a "Christed-Being". We accept our birthright as Sons and Daughter of God by entering into the Divine Union with our God Presence. When we awaken to this understanding, we become the "Church of the First Born" and enter into the Celestial Kingdom. This is "The Endowment". At this point we enter into a new relationship whereby are empowered by a direct and active connection to "The Father" - the I AM Presence and through the power of the Christ-self to do even the things that the Christed Jesus did and greater�
Now even with this understanding, I finally came to realize what was the most important of all in order to actually establish this relationship with my God Presence is THE PURE LOVE OF CHRIST. This is stated so clearly by St Paul in I Corinthians 13 and repeated in The Book of Mormon in Moroni 7:45.
It was not until this understanding was finally impressed upon my consciousness that the final link to my I AM Presence was made. I am daily awakening to new ways of understanding and seeing things around me. It changes how I respond to everything and everyone around me. My God Presence is in control and all things are done through the Christ action. I am only the function of my God Presence. He is in me and I am in Him and We are One.