I am honored that you are here, that I may share some of myself with you. It is my hope that you will find something that you can take with you that may help you along your path. In Lake'ch (I am another yourself)My Inner Voice
Here I share with you songs, poems, meditations
from my Inner Voice, "Ilumani". Love is the music of my heart.
Reflections in the Mirror
Have you even gone into one of those places at a carnival where there were all kinds of mirrors. What you see when you stand in front of them is your image distorted in some way. Have you ever stopped to think how seeing that distortion made you feel? My life's experiences have shown me that we are mirrors to each other. The reflections of what we see are views of ourselves.I have recognized myself in the mirror of someone else many times, but until I began awakening spiritually, that I did not realize what this mirror was reflecting. I recall several times in my business life some big lessons that I had to learn. It was through the reflection of the mirror of those around me that I became conscious of what I needed to address. At the time these were reflected to me I did not realize that this is what I was seeing. But the things that I needed to address did finally get through all of the layers down to the core of my inner self. One of the first times a lesson was presented in the mirror was as a young woman in my early twenties. I was called into the manager's office and reprimanded for something. I was totally bewildered by this occurrence and could not understand exactly what I was in trouble for. I had not stolen anything, I had broken any policy, but yet I was being "called on the carpet" for something� All I can remember was that I had made observations of other's actions and then made statements about these observations to my immediate boss. I then became the target for action by the managers.
I continued to have these experiences until finally one day I finally had enough. I realized that I was being harassed. I began to look at these occurrences and look at the bigger picture as what was going on. In 1980 again a similar situation presented itself. This time when the manager confronted me, I stood up to him and let him know that I would no longer tolerate this action, because I considered it harassment. We then were able to sit down and talk with respect for each other about what was going on and come to a resolution. Interestingly enough once this took place many things changed in my work place that greatly benefited my career and me. This lesson helped me to learn to stand up for myself and stand in my power. Different situations kept presenting themselves until I finally took the correct action. Then transformation occurred and it was on to the next lesson. The next thing that happened was a new manager was brought in with whom I developed a wonderful business relationship. He became my mentor and helped learn how to play the game in the business arena. So we worked together I felt a much deeper connection, a soul connection, to this person. I just could not help but like him. He responded to me in the same way. It was as if we had known each other before somewhere else, (another lifetime?).
Now he became a mirror for another manager in our store. This time I was able to watch the interplay between these two men and how they responded as mirrors to each other calling forth issues that they both needed to address. It was evident that they did not like the things they saw in their mirrors. My mentor moved on to a new position and left our store, but the issues of the other manager caught up with him. Evidently he was not responsive to the things he needed to do so he was given a bigger lesson by being fired and his employment terminated.
I had moved into a new position as a supervisor and new lessons presented themselves. The lessons now went to deeper layers. Finally in 1991 I began to understand the mirror and how it is to helps us discover our true selves, revealing all of the things that we try to hide from ourselves. When I did not respond to a situation, as Christ would have me I would see the reflection of my actions in the mirror of the person before me. Once I became conscious of this I kept this awareness before me as I interacted with others. Sometimes I would still get signals from my customers that they did not like the messages that the mirror was reflecting to them. This concerned me greatly until I realized that I was also a mirror to others whom are misbehaving and acting incorrectly. When they see themselves in their mirror and they do not like what they see, they react and lash out toward the mirror. I would beat myself up mentally and emotionally for causing this response from another person. I was reminded again from management when these things would come to their attention. What I had to discern was whose mirror it was. Until I understood this I was filled with guilt and shame that I had not acted appropriately when a situation occurred. When I finally understood the purpose of the mirror I was able to release my feelings to God, forgive myself for any incorrect actions on my part and move on.
Now when these kinds of situations come up I try respond in a different way, with Christ's love in my heart. And when the other person responds negatively I understand that they are seeing a mirror of their own feelings and issues. Many times I am able to see what is really bothering them and respond in a way that changes the dynamics of my interaction with them. I am thankful that I am now able to use the mirror as tool for transformation.
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