I am honored that you are here, that I may share some of myself with you. It is my hope that you will find something that you can take with you that may help you along your path. In Lake'ch (I am another yourself)My Inner Voice
Here I share with you songs, poems, meditations
from my Inner Voice, "Ilumani". Love is the music of my heart.
The Gift
I had a dream (09-07-00) which I would like to share. I now understand its meaning. It was a vivid and strong dream so it stayed clearly in my consciousness. Until I wrote it down I was unclear as to the meaning of all of the symbols.
I was in a large room like dining room. The tables were set up in long rows. I sat down in a row in the middle of this empty dining room. Then a male (another aspect of myself) being came to sit across the table from me. Then I saw a white sack or bag sitting in front of me. I opened the bag and looked inside. On top I saw some stationary (like wedding invitation stationary) underneath these items were a golden ring (Like a wedding band) a golden rose nosegay, a golden rose crown or tiara and a diamond heart on a golden neck chain.
It seemed like these things were for some kind of wedding. I began taking the items out of the bag to look at them. On the piece of jewelry was what seemed like a price tag, but as the other item's tags seemed like a date this one would be too. The tag said 8995. The tags on the others items had 1993. I walked up to a counter by the entrance to the room. There stood two beings, one male and one female. (These would be my teachers at inner levels.) I asked them for assistance to understand these things. (This is a test for me to ask for help) They told me that I needed to validate this information. I told them that I could not do this from outside of "the system" (outside myself) that I would have to go within to find the answer. They confirmed this that it would be up to me to discover this for myself. Then I thanked them and turned to leave the room and I woke up.
First I understood that the date was very important 1993. But upon further investigation this date was 1-9-93, which is very important. That is the date that I actually received these gifts. I did not remember receiving them until the time of this dream 9/7/00
After counseling with my teacher and further validating the symbols, this is what these things mean:
The Golden Ring is engraved with roses. This ring symbolizes The Promise of Creator, my Father or God Presence given to me - The Covenant.
The Gold color represents Illumination - awakening to the union with the Holy Christ Self, the Christ Consciousness.
The Roses - both engraved on the ring and the roses in the nosegay represent the pure essence of love freely given.
The Golden Rose Nosegay - a collection of blessings, unity, promise and as the bride throws a nosegay to another, it represents future events to come.
The Crown (tiara) - Completion of a level, a victory, success story, receiving and accepting the Authority.
The Dates - I looked up what was happening in 1-9-93. On 1-8-93 I went for admission tests to have the catheter placed in me for chemotherapy which surgery occurred on 1/15/93. This was after being diagnosed with breast cancer in November 1992.
Diamond Heart on a Necklace - The other item in the bag was received on 8-9-95 I became conscious on the inner levels (within) of this is the pure white fire of the sacred heart of my Holy Christ Self that dwells within me.
The Wedding Stationary - the announcement of the date of the wedding, the Union with my Holy Christ Self to take place on the inner levels. I was still unconscious of these events until after 1998. The date that this event actually occurred consciously was 8/30/2000. See Initiations
I believe that I accepted the gift of complete healing released unto me from my God Self on 1/9/93. And with the acceptance of this gift was the beginning of spiritual awakening, healing and clearing or many issues on many levels to prepare me for this Union with my Divine Self on a conscious level. This is what has been happening since that time. It began on unconscious levels and has moved to conscious levels finally in 1998. So I received this dream to help me remember the promises and blessing that occurred and those to come and to validate what has been going on in my life ever since. I have since had other dreams, which validates this dream and adds even more to my understanding.