I am honored that you are here, that I may share some of myself with you. It is my hope that you will find something that you can take with you that may help you along your path. In Lake'ch (I am another yourself)

My Inner Voice

Here I share with you songs, poems, meditations
from my Inner Voice, "Ilumani". Love is the music of my heart.

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Life Changes - Dreams about my Retirement

12/20/01

I am in a very tall building (skyscraper). I am walking around the upper level of plate glass windows that surrounds the building on this level. As I look out toward the horizon from every side I can see a great distance unobstructed. To my left I see an observation deck, which has a long-range viewer that one can look through and see far into the distance (beyond the horizon).

Next I am sitting in a dining room on this same level. I can see the observation deck off to the left of the dining area. There are no walls here. The whole space is open to the adjoining areas. I am speaking to a group of people who are gathered in this dining area and telling them how good it has been to work for this company for over 30 years. And how good they (the company) has been to me and supported me through all my ups and downs, attitude issues and illness. It feels like a farewell party. I point out the location of the viewer to a female who asks me where it is. [In dream symbology this who indicate for me to pay attention to this as it is being emphasized.]

A superior authority is standing on my left [indicating feminine.] This would be my Higher Self or Holy Christ Self. She tells me that there is something that she needs me to do before I leave.

I am now sitting in "control booth" entering some kind of codes. As I am doing this someone questions my "authority" to do this since I have already signed my papers. The "authority" on my left answers and says, "Because I say it is OK. I am here with her". [It is evident that the Authority of my Holy Christ Self is in control of this situation and I am following the instruction that I am being given. What struck me was that it felt like this was a marriage. As I consider my previous experiences this feeling reinforces my understanding of relationship with my Holy Christ Self that has been previously agreed to (see Birthright).]

Following this dream sequence I remember only a brief dreamlette that was something about leaving my current job. When I awoke I asked myself the following questions?

• What am I leaving - releasing?
• What change is taking place? And how will this effect the direction of my path

I know that when something is released then something new can enter� I told my spouse that this dream felt like a premonition of a change getting ready occur. Was it time for a change in my career? [Retirement]

12/23/01

This morning I awoke just before 7 a.m. and realized I was dreaming that I was running on a road that followed alongside a great river [The River of Life]. Next I find myself in this river being carried along by the current. The current seems to be fast flowing. I discover that I can touch the bottom of the river with my feet [understanding]. As I am swimming in this river it seems shallow and muddy. I call to another person also in this river [another aspect of myself] to watch out as there is some "debris" floating on the top of the water [these could represent lessons or karma]. [In dream symbology this could mean that as I find myself being carried along in the River of Life my understanding is shallow and unclear and being called to pay attention to the details that are surrounding me. Water is also symbolic of the emotional body, which seems significant in this scenario.] As I begin to swim towards the other shore I wake up. [Reaching the other side/shore is significant here as it is a metaphor for attaining the primary goal of Life; the Ascension]

As I lay there contemplating the details of this dream I asked my Holy Christ Self what this dreams was about. Then I fell back to sleep and had the following dream.

I am in a warehouse and see a list of names of clients for whom I am waiting for delivery of their custom drapes. I am trying to locate their orders in this place, " a warehouse". (This list has the name of current customers that in my waking state are currently pending delivery.) I am conscious of this as I look over the list of names. I ask someone working in this warehouse if they know where these orders have be staged. I was directed and redirected as I searched, not finding them. So I began to walk down every isle to see if I could locate them. I see the "readymade" drapes, but not the custom drapes. Then I look to my right and see a male sitting at a desk and I ask him about the situation. I hear him say, "I will be moved up the management ladder." I respond that my only focus is for my customers to get their orders installed and that they are satisfied with them and that any service calls are done.

Looking at the symbols here I see this male sitting at a desk stating about being moved up the management ladder as an event on another level as well. This ladder is a spiritual ladder and this male is an aspect of myself. So this event on the physical level is and expression of a spiritual event.

Next scenario I am talking to Lois who represents the Human Resources Department in the store about this situation. She says that this was coming to an end, but she tells me that I will have a job if I want to work in the store. I say that I do not wish to be confined to that so I guess she can get my retirement papers ready.

I wake up. I immediately understand that the previous dream is related to this one. This is the 3rd time I have dreamed about my career ending.

12/26/01

It is the early morning hours after 6 a.m. I am in a lucid (semi-awake) state as this vision comes before me.

I am standing in a space. It does not have defined boundaries. The pervasive color is palest blue like the color of the sky. As I am typing this now my Holy Christ Self is reminding me that this is the color of Akasa (which hold all records, past present and future). I am holding a card in my hand, like an invitation. On the front of this card are 2 angels but there are no words. Next I see a royal blue tote bag sitting by a doorway [portal], which is behind me to my left. As I again face forward, standing in front of me is a beautiful luminous Being. As I first look upon "her" I feel a deep abiding joy, but do not recognize her. Then I see her closer. She is radiant. She appears perfect. It seems like she is a more perfect me as I now recognize my Holy Christ Self and feel her overwhelming love for me. As soon as I recognize Her she disappears from my vision.

Now I am awake enough to thank her for her presence and feel her energy. As I am now fully awake and ponder these things, I understood her message to me through the symbols presented to me. I did not complete that action that was presented to me in this scenario, as I understood that I must be fully alert and act consciously. So as I was doing my morning meditation, my Holy Christ Self again came before me and I accepted the invitation of the Holy Angels. I pick up the blue tote bag and walked through the doorway accompanied by my Holy Christ Self. I could feel the energy shift as I passed through the doorway. The Angels were waiting to meet me as I reached the other side.

I realized that this retirement event was definitely going to happen and it was going to be very soon. At 11 a.m. I received a phone call from the Personnel Department at store the requesting my presence for a mandatory meeting in the Store Manager's office on Friday December 28. I then knew that these dreams were given to me to prepare me for the coming events as well as a message to me that I was not alone at this important time in my life. While I was sitting in this meeting on the following Friday, I was at peace because I knew what was happening. I was able to walk through this Life Change without need to be concerned about what was to come as I no longer in control of my life.

1/4/02

I wake up from this dream. I am standing with "Janice Fortune" as she gives me my retirement packet. I see clearly on the front "RETIREMENT PACKAGE".

I find it interesting that the person who gave me the package was named FORTUNE�

On 1/6/02 I received a phone call from the District Manager of JCPenney Custom Decorating asking me if I would please come to work for them. It was confirmed to me then without a doubt that I had no reason to be concerned about the future events of my life.